Don't know what happened.. but woo wee, this girl has gone into an intense bit of grieving.
Was fine until PMS week hit, and woosh..down down I went.
I don't like hard feelings, but it definitely is a great time to embrace what is hard and just let it run eb and flow.
Thought it would go away after pms was over.. I always spring right back, but noooot so much.
It's still here.
The grief. The loss. And the letting go.
I want to let go. I want to see brightly into the future, but am realizing first I have to visit with the grief of losing this beautiful state, and the dreams we have made here.
The dreams that we were stepping towards.
My chest is tight.
My tummy a mess.
I think I have been shocked and in "get my baby out of danger" mode.
But now, as everything is settling in, I find I am just sad.
It will be ok.
I will be ok.
Just breathing. and being. and crying.
love to you.