Hi my friends..
I know I have been MIA... I don't know what to do with this space anymore.
I actually took it off for awhile, and had people asking where different posts where, so they could share with friends.
I don't know what to do.
I need to update you all.. not a whole 'lot has changed, but forward motion is coming little by little.
This journey has been one of the most intense of my life, and I find myself pressing my ear closer and closer to hear God.
To hear clear. To stay sane. To be me in this journey. To know me in this journey. To not compare.
It's interesting when life get's bumpy, and you find yourself flying around with life's shifts and sways, and flips and flops.. what that squeezes out of you.
I am finding my eyes need to fix to what God has breathed in my heart.
I am also finding that all exterior voices need to shut up, and I have got to listen to the whispers of God in my own heart.
I have been wordless when it comes to the now process of life.
Ask me anything else, just don't ask me how I am right now..today.. because I don't know what to say.
I just want to be here in the today.
Love my family and keep my head above water. Hoping and waiting on this season to move forward.
People have gotten offended.
People have accused me of all kinds of different things.
It's weird. to me. I mean, why do we feel abandoned when someone takes a step back from virtual world to step towards real world?
Why do we jump to conclusions?
It hurts, but I also know that they must miss me...and love me to even feel anything like that.
It's not personal tho.
It's just me. here. inside this really intense season.
I find I don't even have the space inside to respond to that.
I just need to be understood and loved here.
Today is a deep dip day.
I started feeling the shift inside yesterday.
I know it's a full moon, and I am finding I respond greatly to that.
The more connected I am to my heart, the more I am connected to earth, moon, sky.
Anywho, I just wanted to share... don't worry about me tho.
I have taken myself off of all my mailing lists, blogs I had followed, etc... just for a time.
I need the quiet in my head.
It feels like I walk into a room full of beautiful friends, talking all at the same time... and right now I can't seem to sift through it all.
So I am here.
Always love emails tho.
Miss you and will be back to your blogs and heart spaces when this time/season I am in is come to a new space.
I will write when words come and flow.
Loves to you.