Something I have noticed as a kind of a trend in the Bible.... a thread that weaved through the entire book is a theme.... Stories of people experiencing God.
Over and over again... from the very start of the book.
Adam and Eve
Cain and Able
Isaac and Jacob
Just to name a few.....
For a very long time these ordinary people had no Tora or Bible to compare or size up their experiences with God with.
Some had no religion at all, while others practiced pagan rituals...sacrificing their young to different gods.
But God came.
It didn't matter to Him.
He came and met with each one.
They were experiences that were individual to each person, in their time and in their culture.
I was raised to believe that any experience I ever have with God HAS to line up with the Bible.
It had to have happened to someone else, or line up with some scripture, or match up with some "God experience" formula.
And if it didn't line up with all of the above, I ran the great risk of having an experience with the devil as an "angle of light".
But what of these other people?
What of the people who didn't have a book to confirm their experiences with God?
What of the people who had nothing to compare them too?
Where their experiences with God not valid?
The Bible says that God is no respecter of persons.
That He loves all His children equally.
What He will do for one, He will do for the other.
So how am I any different then Moses or Abraham?
See, I don't believe that I am any different then any one of the men or women of the Bible.
I don't believe that my experiences with God have to line up to any book..because they are just that.
MY experiences with God.. therefore they will be completely different to anybody else's experience with Him.
I made a decision..
After my last 2 posts on religion, I have decided I am throwing everything I have been told about God out.
I am letting it all go.
It has brought me here to this place in my journey, and for that I am so grateful.
But for now, in this season in my journey I have to let it all go.
Everything I have read.
Everything I have ever been told about God.
They have to go.
They are not mine.
They are beautiful stories, but I can never own them because they never happened to me.
So, I took out a clean piece of paper.
And I titled it:
What I know and have experienced personally about God.
And I wrote.
All the beautiful thoughts my Papa has spoken to my heart and my journey.
His whispers and the songs He has sung to me.
To me. Not to anybody else. Just me and my Papa.
And it feels amazing.
The letting go, and the embracing what I know, that I know, that I know, because IT IS MINE.
Nothing can shake them from me.
There is no fear in what God has shown me of Himself in the intimacy of my relationship with Him.
I have realized the terror that would come over me, always connected back to what others told me about God.
But when I would hold it up to what I have personally experienced with God, it never matched.
Religion never matched this God.. this beloved Creator, Friend, Papa that I know.
(big sigh and tears)
I can see now why I will never have to be afraid again.
Desiring this for so long, but not feeling ready for it until now.
I am still adding to my list as I remember. :)
I have to tell you, this is one of the greatest freedom's I have ever felt.
To know that I don't have to make something "fit" inside a box of someone else's thoughts and words is absolute freedom.
I feel healing and wholeness coming to my heart in places that have been aching for a very long time.
Source: David Hayward