Friday, June 3, 2011
Because I like me.
I was at Trader Joes last night, putting my grocery bags in the back of my car.
I shut the door and then looked at my little TJ grocery cart....
It's amazing how fast a thought process can happen, isn't it?
The thought zoomed through my head, "Do I take this cart back to the cart bin area, or just squeeze and wedge it up here in the parking lot??"
Now back in my before freedom days, I would have tootled it over to the cart area because Jesus was watching and I wanted to do the right thing. I wanted Him to see what I was doing and be pleased.
So so silly, but true.
But now, as of lately I hadn't been doing that! Ha! I had been leaving my cart just here and there...sometimes if I felt like it, I would bring it back to it's little cart area home.
Something has been working it's way around in me...a little truth that's just been bouncing around inside.... it's this.
I am the one that has to live with my day to day choices.... when I lay down at night, when my head hits my pillow, it's ME who has to like the person I am at the end of the day.
Do I like the person I am inside when I lay in my bed at night...alone with my thoughts....Me. There isn't anybody else there with me..it's just me.
This little nugget of truth....this little question has a boat load of grace and love attached to it.
I really want it just pinned up in my brain.... a little note inside my head... " Do I like me when I do this or that?"
When I interact with my kids.... in my choices.... with my husband....in my tone of voice and the words I speak... in how I treat my fellow man.... in my attitudes and thoughts towards life...
To answer the question... I like the person I am, when I choose kindness and goodness.
I like me, and I like how I feel when I am stepping towards freedom, and light
I like me when I am choosing to not compare myself and my journey to others.
I like me when I can see that I choose those things in my life that are the true gifts and treasures of my heart.....my honey, my family over the piddly distractions of my life that bid me to look their way.
It's just a simple little question that has been mulling around in me...
Do I like who I am at the end of the day?
Going back to my little Trader Joes cart.... I could hear that question come up... and the answer was... "Yep, I like who I am when I take this silly little cart back to it's cart area."
And so I did.
Life to you today....