Woow, am I so missing this space.
I have been in a really really interesting season of busy, and have not had the time or the head space to be creative in my writing and sharing here.
I have been reading all my sweet friends' posts, just not having the mental capasitiy to comment and formulate a rousing thought.. lol!
Have missed you, my friends.
Here is what I have been working on.... and hope to hit the publish button to this morning.
Kmarie and I were chatting a bit over email and she asked for an update on work, moving, how I am holding up... so I thought if she wants to know, then maybe there are others that do to.
I have continued to practice living in the today, embracing "what is" for this season in my families lives, surrendering to that space of "what is" has been one the hardest challenges I have ever faced. It's still something I have to be purposeful about. Just simply because, for me, I have found that is where Grace lives. Grace lives in me just taking it one moment at a time, not projecting into the future, and not dwelling on what was. Grace is here in this moment.
I have to say that once I said, "Yes" to photography inside my heart, WOOSH, it was like someone sent a note out to anybody that would hear that! No joke... THAT has been the craziness on top of craziness. I immediately had people approaching me to photograph their events, their school basketball team, their families, their children, their beautiful momma baby bellies, their wedding!!
I completely booked up October, November AND December!
Just had my very last photog session last weekend, and this girl is taking the rest of the year off!
I have been completley doing this whole photography thing SCARED out of my head.
But the more I have done it, the more joy is welling up inside me.
The more I relax into the gifting that is in me, the less scared I am.
My pattern has been to get really really nervous and cranky until I step into the session with my client..and then it's like I am stepping into some kind of dance... the experience is exhilerating! Euphoric really!
Something happens, and it's the most incredible experience ever! Creativitiy flows, and I am capturing hearts and moments in time.
It's so wonderful :)
I have been behind on my photography blog posts for clients and have begun to catch up since Saturday...but what's so wild, and you will see in the picture, is the variety.
It's like God was just waiting for me to be ready and say yes, and He brought all types of different photography opportunities my way. Literally not just families, but all kinds!
Like He was saying, " Try this on. Do you like it? And this.. taste this... How's that? Is that for you?"
I am utterly exhileratingly exhausted, and so so full in my heart :)
Honestly there is a lot of trust happening. Trusting that as we step towards this, things will begin to come as we move forward. It seems to be the pattern and what God has shown us these past few years.
Stepping away from the church to be our soul source of provision was a really big step for us.
We have totally relied on our TRUE source of Life and Provision, and it's been freaky and wonderful.
Moving to Colorado is what is in our hearts, and so we are just going to step towards it, and see what happens.
I do believe their is a rythym of the Universe... not a formula, but some sort of rythym.
And it goes something like this.
When you step towards the dreams and desires of your heart, in doing that you are really stepping INTO the stream of Life and letting it bring you to those dreams and desires.
Is there stuff to do and fears to work through, OH YEAH!
But there is peace in it, and no strife.
And I truely believe that the doors that need to open, will fling wide open.
And the people you need to meet will come into your path.
And the little signs...turn left, go straight, check here, try this, will begin to appear.
I have heard this little Truth in so many different ways...from different voices.
"When you do what you love, God conspires on your behalf, and it become effortless.
But...when you're on the wrong path, life chases you out of it, and back to the right path."
~ Jillian Michaels
I am finding this to be true.
That is what my life has been lately. Stepping towards things that are in my heart. And I am thankful for the hard spaces, like my job that I go to everyday, that have made me uncomfortable enough to look at different things, and dig deep and ask the hard questions of myself...to hear the whispers of my heart, and step towards those whispers of dreams and desires.
I want to share this with you today, I have more in me..but have to get this day started.
So I am going to hit publish, because I HAVE GOT TO POST THIS! lol!
Your friend and blog lurker ;)
Oh and to see some of the photography I have been shooting lately, you can visit my other blog here...
I have SO much to do as far as getting my business off the ground. But starting this Wednesday, the winter break starts, and I will have 2 weeks to do that.
Hoping to write more as well :)